Saturday.... *yawn*

Today my stomach is behaving very naughty. Diarrhea!!! Feel like punching my stomach. This is what I don't like about my sickness. Sometime normal shit come out. Sometime diarrhea. Last time I had to shit 10 times in 1 day. Freaking tired. Diaper had to be changed many time. Mother had to clean all my shit. I don't know how she cope with her sick daughter. Got me thinking, will I ever take good care of my parent when they are old?

Anyway, I had a dream. I dreamt that I can sit on the floor, get up by myself from the toilet bowl or any low level chair, I can finish one plate of nasi goreng, I can walk normally, all my joints are not in pain and my muscles are not stiff. Just like the old and healthy Sofia. Boy, what a dream! I hope my dream come true so that I can go back to school. Next year gonna be 20. I really gonna need more certificate. ITE certificate isn't enough. After my recovery, I'm gonna concentrate on my studies, medicine, religious and future career. No boyfriend. By the time reach 25 or above, don't think about marriage. Think about career! Get a good certificate, find a career that pay high salary and live a good life. No need to get marry. Just adopt a child and buy a cat. A woman with high salary job don't need a man in her life. Just like what the Pussycat dolls say:

" I don't need a man
to make it happen
I get off being free
I don't need a man
to make me feel good
I get off doing my thing
I don't need a ring around my finger
To make me feel complete."


So, have you guys been notice that nowadays youngsters get sick. I mean not flu, fever that kind of sickness. Its a life time sickness. Take me for example. Diagnose with Scleroderma at the age of 18 in late December last year. A rare sickness. Did you read the newspaper about a 14 year old girl who gave birth and the doctor said she have cancer? My aunty's friend who have a niece that diagnose with Cervical Cancer. She is only 16. She in ICU. She won't eat. She's in hospital all the time. I guess the world is getting more modern, more sickness keeps coming. Youngster eat fast food after school, junkies, etc. The world is just a temporary place. Once you dead, you don't have to carry the pain with you.